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Today may be all I've got, but I'm obsessed with tomorrow.
That's 'cause I know the actions of today will affect tomorrow, for better or for worse. Yet, when I'm feeling hungry or tired or lazy, I have no discipline to follow through with my plans.
Well this needs to change. I'm sick of feeling guilty, full, and bored.
I've just returned from a life-changing trip to the land where my parents grew up, Taiwan. I've seen another world, and I'm determined that I'm going to live differently now that I'm back in my native land.
So, here's where I'm at:
I'm a semi-vegetarian who's interested in sustainability.
I'm married to a wonderful man whom I often take for granted. I absolutely don't deserve the love and attention he gives me. Or rather, he deserves more than he gets from me.
I'm the child of immigrants who live the American dream. I'm the child of two people who can't live without each other but can't live together in peace.
I'm the sister of an 18-year-old just embarking on college and that idealistic period of life. I'm so proud of him and yet so jealous too.
I'm the sister of a 17-year-old who's amazing talented, yet emotionally stunted (even for a 17-year-old). He needs help. I love him, but I'm worried.
I'm a friend of a woman I greatly admire. Instead of being a good friend, I wage private battles of comparison with her, analyzing who's doing better. Ironically, though in my own analyses I nearly always come out on top, I'm still desperately jealous of her.
For the past two years, I've worked developing curriculum. Now I'm embarking on a new career. I don't feel passion for the job position, but I hope that I learn a trade that can get me to something I enjoy doing.
I'm selfish, self-righteous, and totally lacking confidence.
I'm compelled, dissatisfied, and critical.
I'm easily inspired, but I don't commit.
Where I want to be:
I want to be loving and respectful to my husband.
I want to be self-disciplined.
I want to enjoy my job.
I want to be too busy doing things I enjoy and feel proud doing to compare myself with others.
I want to be loving and genuine to my friends.
I want to fill my days with many mini-adventures.
I want to approach the daily facets of life as if they were mini-adventures.
Specific goals
1. Plant a garden between August 2011 and July 2012
2. Speak and read Chinese by December 2011
3. Achieve and maintain physical strength and beauty (120 pounds and lift body weight) by November 2011 and maintained through life
That's 'cause I know the actions of today will affect tomorrow, for better or for worse. Yet, when I'm feeling hungry or tired or lazy, I have no discipline to follow through with my plans.
Well this needs to change. I'm sick of feeling guilty, full, and bored.
I've just returned from a life-changing trip to the land where my parents grew up, Taiwan. I've seen another world, and I'm determined that I'm going to live differently now that I'm back in my native land.
So, here's where I'm at:
I'm a semi-vegetarian who's interested in sustainability.
I'm married to a wonderful man whom I often take for granted. I absolutely don't deserve the love and attention he gives me. Or rather, he deserves more than he gets from me.
I'm the child of immigrants who live the American dream. I'm the child of two people who can't live without each other but can't live together in peace.
I'm the sister of an 18-year-old just embarking on college and that idealistic period of life. I'm so proud of him and yet so jealous too.
I'm the sister of a 17-year-old who's amazing talented, yet emotionally stunted (even for a 17-year-old). He needs help. I love him, but I'm worried.
I'm a friend of a woman I greatly admire. Instead of being a good friend, I wage private battles of comparison with her, analyzing who's doing better. Ironically, though in my own analyses I nearly always come out on top, I'm still desperately jealous of her.
For the past two years, I've worked developing curriculum. Now I'm embarking on a new career. I don't feel passion for the job position, but I hope that I learn a trade that can get me to something I enjoy doing.
I'm selfish, self-righteous, and totally lacking confidence.
I'm compelled, dissatisfied, and critical.
I'm easily inspired, but I don't commit.
Where I want to be:
I want to be loving and respectful to my husband.
I want to be self-disciplined.
I want to enjoy my job.
I want to be too busy doing things I enjoy and feel proud doing to compare myself with others.
I want to be loving and genuine to my friends.
I want to fill my days with many mini-adventures.
I want to approach the daily facets of life as if they were mini-adventures.
Specific goals
1. Plant a garden between August 2011 and July 2012
2. Speak and read Chinese by December 2011
3. Achieve and maintain physical strength and beauty (120 pounds and lift body weight) by November 2011 and maintained through life
